The Heart of God-repost

Lord you have my heart

And I will search for yours

Jesus take my life and lead me on.



Lord you have my heart

And I will search for yours

Let me be to you a sacrifice.



(men) And I will praise you Lord

(ladies) I will praise you Lord

(men) And I will sing of love come down

(ladies) I will sing of love come down

(men) And as you show your face

(ladies) Show your face

(together) We'll see your glory here.Written by Martin Smith ©1994 Curious? Music UK






 On Sunday evening the worship team led us in this great song of worship and at the time I enjoyed the song but didn't realize the impact on my heart! By Monday eve. it had woven it's way into my mind and into my soul. I began pondering about searching the heart of God.
 On Monday while working I imagined the heart of God and what it would be like. Today while running errands I was again thinking about it and the first thing that came to my mind was "He is about'people'".

Think about it, when Jesus walked the face of the earth it wasn't to see how much he could consume,or collect,It was to "draw men unto him".The whole plan was for Jesus to redeem us.When I typed "God's heart" into the Bible search on my blog the scripture reference,John 3:16 popped up "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." Love...that is God's heart...For people.About people.

But my mind doesn't rest with that! How do I search his heart?Communication.Real communication with him through His word and prayer. Yet I ask;What part of his heart does he want me to find , search, display ? When I think of His heart I imagine it to be so large with many different avenues. I wonder are there parts that I need to focus on and others that you need to?

Still it all boils down to people.Humans.Flesh and blood.Loving them.I do think the "different" for each person is how we demonstrate it.

I did a little more research on this whole idea and one author stated that first you discover God's heart than follow with obedience.Is what God calls me to different than you?

In the midst of all the pondering I did get some errands done.I also got a call from my husband asking me if I could bring a tool to his job site that he had forgotten this morning.To be real honest I was frustrated because I had my plan for the day.My agenda marked out. I selfishly ranted a bit.That's when I thought about the other part of the song that states "I will praise you" How much easier to praise if my day went as planned .I had prayed earlier "show me your heart",and He gave me a chance to see if I could really demonstrate a part of his heart in real life , I so easily forgot.I ask God and my husband to forgive me.



Well,my thoughts seem a little rambly but I am still not finished thinking about this...but life in my day is calling me...so to be continued would be fitting!

Being me

Why is it so difficult to accept sometimes who “me” is. Meaning You, and me. You thinking who you are and me who me is. I ,this morning am feeling a bit overwhelmed by so much. My mind is going in so many directions ,excitement over a new venture, the normal life of trying to find a new job and than I am wanting to take the easy road, say “STOP everything!” . I know this new venture for me is putting myself and what I think about and what I love out there for anyone who wants to see and I than begin the worry fit….I Know it is not God putting those worries into my heart. My mind is churning around like the load in my dryer right now…Like I said I know it’s not God -it’s that horrible “being” that does not want anyone to be blessed by another…he only finds glee-(I refuse to use the word happiness when talking about the devil himself) in the miserable-ness of humans. Anyway ,why am I giving him so much room on my blog post anyway -so lets move on…

I am aspiring to use the gifts God has blessed me with. I have asked a few lovely ladies from church to help in this venture since I have tendencies to become overwhelmed before the project even begins-hence my agitated thinking patterns this morning. They so readily agreed we met at Panera Bread and the ball started to roll! Whew…I came home charged and ready for the Holy Spirit to move within me and START now! Than, as I lay in bed the worry thoughts began. Today I go back and forth with “maybe this is all too fast…maybe I should wait and see” …I begin to browse (I guess that is what it’s called) other blogs and see how beautiful, well known and organized they are. I begin to imagine these other faithful bloggers have a life of pure perfect lives that are interesting to blog about. I am just a simple, plain literally an X- Amish girl who lives a rather normal Sunday to Sunday life ,loves God and hope(notice Hopes) to get a ministry started to help other woman out of this slump that I have basically created for myself this morning…Am I really anyone? Does my life really merit more than the norm? O boy….Here we go a full circle and than I pray LORD…HELP!

God made me, me and you ,you…sometimes it’s so hard to see ourselves succeed. But, when that is our praise back to God- when we receive joyfully what he’s given and return it back to him…There it is…that’s my final answer. It’s about God and not about me. When my focus gets so inward than is when the trouble starts.

I today will return to God what he has given me packaged as beautifully as I can in praise to him.

Shaving Yaks

That is exactly what I have been doing...Shaving yaks.If you have never heard of the term let me tell you how I heard it than what the actual meaning of it is.
I first heard it in a sermon.That sermon has stuck with me -probably because I am an avid yak shaver.This is what it is; "yak shaving is what you are doing when you're doing some
stupid, fiddly little task that bears no obvious relationship to what
you're supposed to be working on, but yet a chain of twelve causal
relations links what you're doing to the original meta-task.",(http://projects.csail.mit.edu/gsb/old-archive/gsb-archive/gsb2000-02-11.html )


Yes, for instance this blog-posts far and few between -that tells you a lot.O it's been on my mind.I have several times logged in but always get distracted by finding reasons to research something ,or edit what I did write and guess what?
in a Bible study  I read in Exodus 14:15-16 that God told Moses to "Tell the Israelites to "MOVE ON". I believe when those words were written all those years ago God thought about me.

simply ...living as a Christian should

I've  been thinking the last few days about getting back to simplicity in being a Christian. Just that phrase alone, can make a person think "what do you mean by that?" I guess I sometimes weary of how difficult I make the simple thing of  being a christian girl,-let's start with prayer- it's talking to God. It's confession.It's telling God about our feelings-about Him,about life,and those situations around us.It's thanksgiving.We are come boldly right? So, let's do it!

 The Bible.Read it! Sounds so simple but yet I make it into a difficult "to do" list.Scripture is so full of direction-but yet I often turn to the christian "self help" section of the local book store  when I get into a cramp about a situation or something...I by no means am saying those are wrong ,they have been a huge help in my life,it's just that it somehow seems wrong when I turn to those first.
The first and greatest commandment is ;

"Love the Lord your God".

Exactly and simply that- LOVE.

Who couldn't love the ONE who has given so much?

Next, it's...

" Love your neighbor" 

How many discussions can one have about that? Seriously! I need to quit beating a dead horse and act on it!
Another area I think about-
 The Holy Spirit in my life.  Directing,nudging,leading....but yet I ignore way too often!

So, there you go-getting back to simply being God's child.

day late and a dollar short?

Ah here it is January ? ....not exactly sure  of the date today I just know that the days are just as long as they  were when I was a kid -but they seem shorter somehow-and at other times the weeks seem long. I feel as tho the week we spent in Pa. over Christmas was a month ago already! That is strange. Maybe because  I have been having World war III with the flu in my system  -  My New years day came and went with out any festivities at all -which made me so sad! ....I love New years and the freshness of it...the whole idea of getting a new start,taking up where I left off. .Check when my last post was! it's actually over a year ago New years! My MY...I guess I just said
"I

love

a fresh start!" :)


Reflecting on the past year....it's good there are pictures to remind us of it all -

Chip's Sister and Family asked us  to join them at a guest House in Clear water last new years ...it was wonderful! We just were plum lazy and I had a scrumptious massage at a local spa . Of course the normal "get the families to stand together act nice and SMILE" photos were taken!

A fun day at a arcade / ride fun place(the name leaves me) It was a great time except for the rain that inhibited the outdoor fun til later in the day when it got very chilly....but none the less -it was FUN!

pardon the sideways photos....when I wait for a year to post....it takes a lot of time!

Life, friends,homecoming,pool and food at Merle and Roses' house,Beach time and backyard parties --2010 holds lots of memories!

I say a few days late...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

It' a new year!

January 6,2010.wow...it's amazing how the time goes by.I remember when the year 2000 was hard to imagine.:) This year is still a mystery.Filled with question.One thing I know for sure is that God is already there.Isn't that comforting,a restful thought? This past year had things happen that I would just as soon not have had to experiance and if we would have known what all was going to happen we would have hunkered down and not come out some days.Like I said before- "God was already there" . He is there in the middle of our "stuff".There ready to walk us right through and DELIVER us. I want to approach 2010 with gusto.I want to hold my head high ready to serve God where He is.

In the beginning of Dec...

Dec. is here.Thanksgiving 2009 is history. Life is moving on one day at a time. I have to do something to get myself in the mood for Christmas! Seriously things have been rather stressful at work.I know it's not only me because it's a large group of us wondering "what in the world"! But all that aside the family is still looking forward to me doing something to make this Holiday a wonderful time filled with the things we call traditions.Really ,what is Christmas without the huge tree in the house,the lights twinkling,snowmen lined up in their proper places around the house,chocolates,peppermint mochas,and whatever else makes us feel Christmasy.:) O I love it -I love it all I am just having a hard time believing it's that time. Boy o boy, time (literally) flies.


So...this weekend I believe I will have to get busy.Get busy getting this home ready for the Great Holiday of Christmas.My question to myself is...I my heart filled with Jesus? Is my heart in tune with His? Is his place of residence decorated with the best for Him?Is his home uncluttered and beautiful? You know how we sigh,and gasp when we see a home beautifully decorated for Christmas and it brings warm fuzzy ,homey feelings straight to our heart? Well...that is what I want others to see from my life because they see Jesus in my life.I want them to hunger and thirst for the same thing.Back to my first thought I need to do something to get me in the mood....That could be getting new ideas by going out to stores,visiting my friends house that has already decorated or listening to Christmas music...that is my whole point ...hopefully folks will see my heart,and sense a desire to have the same-Jesus!Have a Great time preparing for Christmas!